Layer Twenty Eight…

It is rainy outside. You know what I mean. Where it is on and off annoyingly drizzle rain. There is a promise of the sun to come out midday and then have the perfect afternoon, 67 degrees and sunny. That change in the weather is how my moods change in just one day. My changeContinue reading “Layer Twenty Eight…”

Layer 822006

It has occurred to me that I have never shared and openly discussed the day I almost died. I have spoken about the day in parts to various people and parts in detail to some of the ones closest to me that experienced the day with me. The utter horror of the day overwhelms now.Continue reading “Layer 822006”

Layer 1,366

It was cold outside. Not bone chilling cold but cold that sneaks up on you and with a snow storm on the horizon hours away the air was filled with anticipation. Anticipation for many reasons though. Spring was around the corner, baseball was just saved and the STL Cardinals were not just keeping 4/7 asContinue reading “Layer 1,366”

Layer 777 – Gratefulness

On the eve of Thanksgiving 2020 I am alone and feeling as though I need to share what I have learned about gratitude.  For me learning things takes a little longer than most.  It is hard to stay focused and then when I am riding bi-polar waves up and down my mind is trying toContinue reading “Layer 777 – Gratefulness”

Layer 2020 with depression

Sunday eve is upon me.  Things were a little blue this weekend.  With Covid ramping up again and I knew it would, it is just feeling pretty isolating like in March and April.  I thought I did pretty good through the beginning and now that it is in full force again, I am convinced IContinue reading “Layer 2020 with depression”

Layer One- My first diagnosis

I was first diagnosed with a mental illness at 19 years of age.  I feel like there are 2 parts of a person with a mental illness: before diagnoses and after diagnosis. Signs that say, take her to a psychiatrist and have her tested.  Maybe medications would help.  This was not how my pre-diagnosis lifeContinue reading “Layer One- My first diagnosis”